谎言

这个世界~
我真的很害怕~~~
我真的无法辨认人们所说的话~
哪句是真？？？
哪句是假？？？

我很讨厌别人骗我！！！
因为。。。
我曾经玩弄过一个我不想伤害及非常在乎的一个人~
那人生气了~
我玩弄那人还不止一次啊~
我玩弄那人两次~
之后~
我好不容易才得到那人的原谅~~~
谢谢！！！

从那次起~
我很少玩弄人~
也不别人玩弄我~
更加不要说欺骗我！！！

因此~
朋友们说的话~
我大多数都会选择相信~~~

可是！！！
怎知道！！！
他们都是。。。
说笑的！！！！
说假的！！！！

haiz~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

选择相信一切~
怎知道！！！
换来欺骗~
相反的~~~
选择不信~
换来人们说我不信他/她~

walao yeh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
这是什么世界啊？！？！？？！？！？！
越来越可怕啊！！！！！！！！！！！！！！


说真的~
人们比鬼来得恐怖几百，几万，甚至几亿倍啊！！！
因为鬼~你不犯他~他不会犯你的！！！
人类叻？？？
我无话可说！！！！！！！！！！
>.<




P/S:
上一篇~我用英文写~
希望大家看得懂我的broken Inggeris咯~
哈哈

finish!!!

Yeah!!!
My trial exam finish already!!!
I can relax 4 a while liao~
haha

Let me start 2 say about my 2 weeks of exam lo...

my exam start on 17 of Sept.~
but...
I went into pcf & Jusco with my sister on 16 of Sept.~
haha
(I told it before)
after went out~
I felt tired~
I took my Chinese books~
but...
my eye watched TV~
haha
I also no mood 2 study too~
hehe
so...
i did not study at all & waited 2 sleep~
next day~
17/9
I waked up early in the morning~
I forgot what time already~
maybe is 3.30am~
*
I wake up early in the morning since every exam~
except I cannot wake up lo~
haha
*
I just 2 study 名句精华 & 文言文~
I hate 文言文!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it always cause my chinese mark very low!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
><
after it~
I did not konw how 2 do the 文言文~
I think my Chinese mark is low this time too~
haiz~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I went into pasar malam with my sister at night~
I bought a pair of shoe~
same as my sister~
hehe


after that~
I rest 2 days~
because that days is Saturday & Sunday mah~
hahaha
I no need 2 say about Saturday la...
I did not study on that day 1~
the reason is I want 2 rest 1 day~
haha
Sunday~~~
I just want 2 start my Bahasa Melayu~
==
on the time,
I just aware that BM has so many things want 2 memory arh!!!
I felt very regret lo!!!
but...
all is too LATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
>.<


20/9
same as before~
I waked up early in the morning~
I just start 2 memory the importance things~~~
after it~~~
I'm correct 2 of 3 about the topic that I guess that will 'come out' of komsas~
but...
I did not how 2 answrered the komsas too~~~
I forgot already arh!!!!
BOOM AT ALL!!!
>.<
I had go 2 tuition afternoon~
but...
I felt tired~ especially the Add Math tuition~
I just saw a bit of Inggeris at night~
suddenly~I just awared that this exam has novel-The Pearl~
I only 2 find the books~
after prepare it~ I go slept liao~


21/9
same as normal......
I just start 2 study it & memory~
because we start exam at 8 something~
so.......................................
the kipo teacher want 2 check hair of all Form 5~
yor~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I think they will check tomorrow 1~
mana tau!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
they check today~
I very scare lo~
but!!!
Luckly~
I just kena kuku~
but,I 逃过一劫~
I not kena hair~I'm safe~
Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha
after it~
the novel is DIE!!!
the short story & poem~ I guess wrong all~
so... ALL IS BOOM!!!!!!!!!
>.<
the Inggeris is my 死穴!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
最烂的一科!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
how can 2 improve it leh???
T.T
because I din not kena hair~
so....................
mama said, no need go 2 cut lo~
haha
I wanted 2 memory the kata kunci of nilai 1~
but...tired~~~ cannot memory it at all~
so............................................................


22/9
same as normal................................
I start 2 memory it~
everyone is memory the definisi of nilai~
but.......
I just memory the kata kunci only~
haha
my sister told me that she memory kata kunci that time only~
she got A2 arh~~~
I most HATE 2 memory 1 arh~
so...I do it too~
hehe
but...
I also memory a few definisi  that always use la~
haha
after it~
not bad la~
the definisi that I memory can use its~
haha
I do revision math at night~
but...
I do 10 questions~ I had 8 questions were wrong!!!
>.<
so pek cek arh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so......................................................................


23/9
same as normal..........................
I only do the revision~
after it~
not bad la~~~
I felt LUCKY!!!
because I done the paper 1 until last minutes~
teacher said pass up~I still count the question~
finally~I count it~
the answer same as I circle 1~
I felt happy & worry~
happy is I get the answer~
worry is because I did not checked 1 more time~
I very scare that I do wrong lo~
but...I also smile when the rest time~
but!!!
my friend saw me like very happy~
she said, you sure can do it la~ see you so happy~
><
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*
sad, got people say~
smile, also got people say~
walao!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
what can I arh??????????????????????????
>.<
*
luckly!!!
I did not tuition BM this month~hehe
I took the sejarah books~
I want 2 study~
but cannot arh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HATE SEJARAH arh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
cause me sleeply!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
><
so...............................................................


24/9
same as normal.....................................
I just continuos 2 study the sejarah~~~
I just study the paper that school teacher gave~
after it.......................
I'm DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I did not know how 2 do the paper 2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Teoh also said, he did not know~
but, don't know real or not~~~
>.<
when exam paper 1~
the si gui teacher~Pn. Tan~~~
she wrote 2 people that get 40 per 40 in maths paper 1 on whiteboard~
I saw it~ I felt very sad & disspointed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I done it until last minute 1 arh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
when I get the answer same as I circle~
I felt I got a little chance 2 score 40 per 40 arh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
mana tau!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haiz~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
期望越大~失望越大!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
T.T
many people felt sad about sejarah on that day~
but.......
I felt sad about the maths paper 1 more than the sejarah arh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
TT


after that~
rest 2 days again~
hehe
RW want me 2 teach her Add Math 1~
but,I refuse it~
because I don't not got enough time 2 study liao~
friend, SORRY arh~
same la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I did not study at all on Saturday~
haha
25 of Sept.~
I tuition science last time liao~
teacher don't want teach liao~
he want become 'peniaga' liao~ *jkjk
haiz~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
he not say anything about SPM yet arh!!!!
he also not give any tips yet arh!!!
Sunday~
I want 2 do revision Add Math & akuan 1~
but...............
I'm quarrel with my sister~
so.................
I no mood 2 study at all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
><
I want 2 take a nap~
suddenly~~~
my sister said, papa want go 2 Tesco~
so.....................................
I wake up & go out too~
hehe
after that~tired~~~~
I did not done anythings on the whole day~~
haiz~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
><
I just do a few question of Add Math at night~
but...............................
same as maths~
I do 10 questions~
8 or 9 questions were wrong!!!!
walao yeh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
><
so...................................................................


27/9
same as normal................................
I quickly do revison~
><
I reached school~
I just konw it that HL also went into Tesco yesterday~
many people went into Tesco yesterday too~~
haha
after it..................................
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
paper 1 was not bad la~
but................
paper 2 was CHAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
TT
I want 2 cry lo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my A sure disappeared liao la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
T.T
I went into akuan tuition~
but,did not attended add math tiution~
I SMS 2 friends~ I want 1 of they help me take the paper~
but.........................
HL did not reply~
Lim Hooi & Zi Qin reply me that they did not go too~
finally!!!!
GH got go & he help me~
friend, thanks~~~
I did not attended because I felt sad & tired!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't want 2 see the add math again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
TT
then................
I took the science book & watched TV~
haha
I also got read la!
I read all the chapter of Form 4~
but............................
I did not know that its get in my brain or not~~~
>.<
after that~
I went 2 sleep~


28/9
same as nomal........................
I study all chapter of Form 5~
I just read tuition paper only~
I did not has time liao arh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
after it......................
just ok la~
but........................
I hope can kredit la~~~~
I do revision dokumen-dokumen on evening~
not bad la~
I done 2 question about this~
I just wrong a bit only~
hehe


29/9
same as normal.................................
I review all the tuition paper only~
after it....................
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!paper 2 was DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
many people don't know how2 do~
me too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I think I was lose 20 marks liao!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
TT
paper 1 was not bad la~
my akuan paper will FAIL second time?!?!??!?!?!??!?!?
arh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't want it 2 fail the second time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I just hope it score 40++!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but.................................\
if it can score 50++ better la~~~~~~~~~~~~
haha
>.<
when I wake up from nap~
I take my ekonomi notes & sit there~
suddenly!!!!
papa said, want go 2 Tesco again~
so.....
I went into there second time~
haha
*
If eldest sister know it~
she sure will 呱呱叫de~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
haha
*
I just read the tips that teacher give us at night~
30/9
same as normal....
wake up at 3.30am~
but.......................
I just read a bit only~
I cannot tahan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I went into sleep again at 4.30 something~
==
after it.................
not bad la~
but...................
paper 2 hiam hiam cannot finish on the time arh~
><


yahoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
2 weeks of exam is OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but....
the worry time is reach~
that is take result tme~
arh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
><

I hope all subjects can pass~~~
if all subjects can get kredit is BETTER la~~~
haha

S.W.Y~
although how the result on this time~
don't forget 2 smile oh~~~


although the trial exam finish liao~
but....
real SPM is comng soon~
start from tomorrow is 1 of Oct. liao~
that mean just left 1 month more nia~
so..........
I want 2 study hard!!!
I don't want feel helpless again on real SPM~
like this trial exam~
especially the akuan & add math papers~


SWY~
gambateh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SPM is your last chance!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Try Your Best!!!
+U+U

有种朋友，很喜欢，但就是不能追

男生说……

有种女生让我很喜欢，

却不忍动情。

跟那种女生在一起时，

会有种温暖的感觉，

那感觉并不出自一时的冲动,

而是来自于彼此心灵的了解。

真的，跟那种女生在一起时，

只有彼此心中的感动和心灵的交会，

没错，

当你发现她的心和你是如此贴近时，

常会想给她个结实的拥抱，

但仅仅在这个想法萌生后的一瞬间，

你们只会相视一笑，

有些东西是比爱情更珍贵的。

这种女生当女朋友是种浪费……

我害怕她做的我女朋友后,

我必须每天守着电话等着她的声音出现，

我害怕我必须说些花言巧语的话哄她，

更加害怕现实的束缚，

会限制住纯洁的心。

这种女生，

喜欢，

但我不会动情，

或者，

这就叫红颜知己……

既不用为情所困，

为她的行为控制自己喜怒哀乐，

又能享有心灵上的交流。

有很多人都为交不到女朋友所苦，

但我觉得，

假如没有了这种知己，

人生，

便多了许多遗憾……

女生说……

有一些男生，

很令我动心，

但却不会动情。

怎么说呢，

因为他们给我的感觉像朋友，

真正的朋友 。

我可以和他们很坦诚的谈论彼此的爱情、婚姻、人生……

以及种种的烦恼……

在他们面前，

我会忘记自己是女生，

就不会撒娇、嫉妒、小心眼……

我和他们各站在天平的两端，

我们可以一同看电影、郊游回来，

在车站挥挥手，各自去等自己的车，走自己的路。

这种感觉……

是一种很难用语言能形容的愉悦……

信不信 ，

跟这些男生相处在一起，

甚至比跟同类的女生相处来的愉快。

女生的聚会，是黏稠稠的，

像一锅浓粥，温暖在胸，

但是吃多了会撑，一眨眼又饿，

而且很多女生都为情所困，

谈来谈去总是心有千千结，

别人管也管不完，跟这些男生相处，

我很惊讶……

他们不必从文字、故事的迷林披荆斩棘，

就能一眼洞穿人生的奥秘，

甚至开始为旁边的同行者掌灯，

能结交有智慧、理想与热情的朋友，

是人一生莫大的幸福吧 。

我是这样着迷于他们高贵的气质，

也感谢他们把我当「朋友」看待，

不因为我是女生，

就随便说些甜言蜜语来哄我，

或者根本不睬我 。

如果追求人生的伴侣也必须如此相知相惜，

那我实在「舍不得」把这些男生当成男朋友，

我害怕一旦变成男女朋友，

我就会计较他不送我回家……

他不说些好听的动心话……

他宁可送我「尼采与上帝」也不送一粒巧克力……

我还担心从此他只要我乖乖的陪在一旁，

微笑地看他在众人间侃侃而谈，

我发问的机会都没有。

男女之间，其实不只有爱情……

有种友情，是只可会意不可言传的。

彼此之间有种惺惺相惜的感觉，

不必害怕别人的误会，

因为彼此心中坦荡，

很喜欢这种“兄弟”之称的友谊，

这种朋友有种信赖的安全感，

可以肆无忌惮的说笑，

天马行空的胡扯，

彼此之间没有包袱，

但有种珍惜，

是对友谊的珍惜。

你也许会对他(她）撒娇，

但不会妒忌他（她）对别人也如此，

不用再他面前装做淑女（或不用在她面前装做绅士），

有种朋友即使很久没见也不会生疏，

相见时的相视一笑，

便会有种心有灵犀的感觉，

和他（她）在一起时，

不必担心会背叛你，

因为他只会给你默默地支持，

即使你受伤了，

他也会给你做坚强的后盾。

心情不好时，

他(她)会装傻逗你笑，

生病时，他(她)会叮嘱你要小心什么，

每逢特别节日时，

他（她)会发一条简信祝福你，

很多人都希望有这种友谊，

因为它不需要负担与责任，

我想这种友谊也要讲机缘吧，

友谊也需要关心、谅解、信任。

我希望友谊地久天长。

我很珍惜我身边的每一位朋友谢谢你们对我的支持与爱护。

 
 

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读后感：

 

看完了~

我的心。。。只出现了一句话~

我曾经拥有过这友情~~~

可是............................................

接着~就再次出现一句话~

这友情~~~

有了另一半~也就结束了！！！

haiz~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

sorry

I wanna tell to my friends~
SORRY~~~

I`m sorry about the things that I done...
I`m sorry~ I did not know~
I`m careless that time~
I also awared after that one~
I`m sorry abot I not dare to tell u after~~~
I wanna tell u by write the letter~
but..............................................

I`m sorry about the things that I does not do yet~
but...I wanna to do it later~
I`m sorry~ I`m powerless~
I also not enough time already~
I`m sorry~
I also very scare of loss!!!

Friends~
I`m Sorry!!!!!!


PLEASE DO NOT CONDEMNATION!!! 
*不要对号入座!!!
Thanks!!!

pressure

Oh No!!!
exam Bahasa Melayu tomrrow~
but...
Now~
I do not memorise anymore!!!
my brain does not has anything about BM yet!!!
><

like that~how to exam tomorow???
@.@

I wasted 1 day more already!!!
haiz~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I so regret about i did not study anymore yesterday!!!
arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
T.T

if my BM fail this time~
I sure DIE arh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yorrrrrrrrrrrr~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
who can tell me about...
this exam...
want to read all komsas???
OR
just read komsas that did not 'out' in SPM???

because this question lo~
I don`t know how to do arh!!!
&
wasting my time only!!!
=.='''

I lazy to memorise lo~~~
I hate to memorise~~~
because my memory is so NOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
T.T


who can help & tell me NOW!?!?!?!??!?!?!?




I   HATE    EXAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
>.<

exam cause me...
feeling nervous!!!
feeling pressure!!!
feeling sad!!!
and many many..................
T.T

有没有一个人

有没有这么一个人

你会在想起他时不自觉地上扬了嘴角

{曾经}

有没有这么一个人

你会在听到他的名字时忽然变得沉默

{是的 ==}

有没有这么一个人

你会在独自一人时想他想到哭泣，却在看见他时故作无所谓地笑

{是的~但...没机会再看到了}

生命中有太多的美好与感动

但是你宁愿为了那个人而失落伤感，甚至濒临崩溃

你会在日记上写下大段大段曾经不属于你的失落伤感

会在听到某句歌词那么贴切地唱出你的心声时失声痛苦

{ya~}

会在夜里梦到他冷漠的表情，从夜里哭醒过来

……甚至更多更多

 

有没有这么一个人

你感谢上天让你遇见了他，你觉得只要看见他就是一种幸福

{前一句：ya~}

有没有这么一个人

你无数次说着要放弃，但终究还是舍不得

{是的 ><}

有没有这么一个人

你为他浪费了青春错过了爱情，却依旧傻傻地守候，即使你知道不管等多久他依旧不会回头

喜欢他的每一天对你来说都是一种折磨

每一分每一秒。都夹杂着痛苦与甜蜜

即使痛苦一次次让你落泪。即使你知道甜蜜只是你安慰自己的假象。可你依旧学不会放手

你说你认了

你说你从喜欢上他那刻起就认输了

你说。[你看，我输到心都空了。]

有没有这么一个人

会让你觉得是老天派来克你的，可是你却心甘情愿地被伤害，即使你知道你会遍体鳞伤

有没有这么一个人

你无数次希望自己没有喜欢过他，甚至从未认识过他

{是咯~}

但是如果老天给你一次机会回到过去，你依旧会选择喜欢他，甚至连一丝犹豫都没有

有没有这么一个人

你不知道他究竟是不是你生命中的那个唯一

你不确定自己是在错误的时间遇见了对的人还是在对的时间遇见了错误的人

…

你能确定的只有你喜欢他。但是他不喜欢你

朋友不止一次为你抱不平

他们劝你放弃

他们说他不值得你为他伤心

他们说。[他有什么好？]

可是你却为他抱不平

你说他值得

你说他很好很好

你说。[只是我不够好罢了。]

很可笑呵。

明明。

明明你知道你很好

明明你知道朋友是心疼你才会这么说

明明你知道你放弃了对彼此都好

可是你就是不想放弃

…

[因为他就是他啊。独一无二的他啊]

..

由始至终你只是默默的看着。想着。喜欢着…只是因为害怕你的喜欢会带来他的不安

于是你深藏起自己的感受，把难过伤感都往肚子里咽

你觉得自己再难过也好过让他难受

那会让你心疼

单恋让人变得卑微

你甚至从不奢求他喜欢你

你只希望他不要剥夺你喜欢他的权利

你对他那么好好到人人都替你惋惜

好到他的朋友羡慕不已

好到喜欢的那个他愧疚得不知所措……

可是人生有太多的遗憾

比如有人爱你爱得热烈专注，你却无法接受他的好心

比如你爱那人爱得歇斯底里精疲力竭，他却只能对你说[对不起]

[你曾经那么相信他是你的幸福。可是他的幸福不是你。]

你认为这么单恋也不错

你对自己说。

[喜欢是一个人的事情。]

那么你为什么还会一次又一次难过地流下眼泪？

心里的疼痛一次又一次地折磨着你

于是你终归是累了

真的累了

你终于狠下心要放弃了

你说。

[不是不爱了。是爱不起了。]

你说。

[付出了那么多。到头来却只是让彼此都不快乐……虽然依旧舍不得。但是我爱他。所以我舍不得他不幸福。]

你说。

[一个人的爱情。你让我怎么天长地久？]

但是你又说，说得那么决绝

你说，[如果再给我一次机会，让我回到从前，我依旧会选择不顾一切地爱上你。]

你说，[即使曾那么痛苦，我依旧感谢能够遇见你。遇见你。是我最大的幸运。]

你说。[我会记得，我曾那么深刻地爱过一个人。]

你知道你必须放下。

因为未来的路还很长。而他给不了你你要的幸福

但是你还是会舍不得

因为你不知道

以后还能不能遇见一个人，能让你像现在爱他一样疯狂而执着地爱着那个人

能不能像喜欢他一样用尽全力.不求回报地喜欢那个人

...

你只知道，他是你心里一道无法愈合的伤口

你无法忘记，只是因为他曾经让你那么深刻地爱过、伤过、痛过

于是。

你把他埋在心里的一个角落

深深地、深深地

怕一不小心触及，会引来刺骨的疼痛

然后你笑着对他说：

[对不起。亲爱的我不爱你了。]

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看完了~~~

我的心。。。。。。

我好像真的爱上[ta]了！！！

>.<